I think (I haven't actually bothered to check) that a lot of my recent posts have been about the up and down, and round and round feelings I go through all the time. It might make for monotonous reading, but it takes up most of my time.
I've decided to coin a new term for this feeling: widow-lescence.
It reminds me a lot of the turmoil of being a teenager... the doubt, the anxiety, but also some shining moments of joy. Just as adolescence is a journey we all must take to emerge into the adult world, I know I must go through this in order to re-emerge into a world without Tony. It's something very difficult, and something I can only go through alone... I will say that I'm thankful that there is less acne in widow-lescence.
So, bear with me as I learn how to be a person again... a phrase that I hear so many parents use when their kids emerge from adolescence.
Also, I promise an excellent travel post soon!
Love your posts, helps keep us connected.
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful term.
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